Tuesday, January 29, 2013

Long day- Palpitations- Snow day!

The last three days I have been an emotional wreck. Not sure why. Not sure I will ever really know the reasons why I have those days. I have had those days every once in awhile since my cancer diagnosis. I am sure some of it may be exhaustion, lack of a thyroid, stress from the diagnosis...

So- yesterday was nuts! I overscheduled myself. I knew it when I looked at the calender on Sunday afternoon. I contemplated changing some stuff or backing out on things. I know that I cannot do as much as I used to be able to.

My day started with a yoga class. I usually do yoga Tuesday nights at the Rec Center here in our neighborhood. I love the teacher and the workout. The teacher is also doing a 4 weeks class on Mondays. They are about 15 minutes longer than the Tuesday class.  Yesterday morning, after dropping Hais off at school, I had just enough time to run home and get things for the gym. I dropped C off at the child care cause it was at the Eat Rec Center and then had to drive to the West Rec Center for my class.

As soon as I finished class- I had to run and get gas- like BADLY. I pulled into the pump with my car showing 9 miles left til empty. I then ran to pick up C and we had to run some errands. Not a big deal but we also had to pick up a friend and her daughter at 12:40- I pulled into my house at 12:16! I showered, dressed, and got C and I out the door on time! Lunch was at Olive Garden. I met fantastic women! Including one that I have been chatting with for a few weeks who is also dealing with thyroid cancer. It was nice to chat with someone who gets it.

I got home from lunch at 3:15... just in time to head over and get Hais from school. We walked back in the door at 3:50 and back out the door at 4:10. I met up with Lee and switched out cars and kiddos. I met up with a new friend, Kathy and Michelle (from lunch). We headed to Denver for the Colorado Thyroid Cancer Survivors Support Group. Kathy has been awesome. She has been ahead of me on this journey and a great person for me to ask questions of.

The weather was awful. It started snowing about 10 minutes out of Colorado Springs. The support group was nice. There were 10 people there- including a friend I have met through the Thyca Site who is my age and also on this journey. It was nice to be surrounded by people dealing with this. As much as I feel I got great information- it was also overwhelming. Walking into that room- somehow makes me feel as though I was officially labeling myself as a cancer patient. Their was a Dr there that is part of the most amazing Thyroid Cancer team in the US. We got tons of information but I honestly felt overwhelmed.

I did not get home until 10:15.  I went straight to bed. Then this morning- I was woken up. I just felt off. A little nauseous and almost panic like. I knew immediately it was my heartrate. I went into the living room and took my pulse. 112 beat a minute. That is awful.  My resting heartrate is normally 65ish beats per minute. I laid on the couch- and tried to relax. I felt awful! Luckily- I feel normal again. I know that being super hyper can cause this. When you have thyroid cancer- they keep your TSH low to help suppress cancer growth. The levels they want you at is 0.1-0.5 ish. I am currently 0.05. So they lowered my meds and that should adjust. Yet- I am not sure that is the issue. I think I overdid it yesterday. I think last nights meeting stressed me out. Too much info and too much of a reality check.

I woke up though- to snow. Lots of it. Just what I needed!!! I love winter and snow is SO relaxing to me. It was the refresher I wanted and needed.

1 comment:

Chelzz said...

The snow is gorgeous! My mother in law and my best friend both have problems with their thyroid and it sounds like a tough thing to keep in control and manage. I hope you feel better and take time to rest!