Falling down on the job

Are there moments you question yourself as a parent? Where you feel like you are coming up short? I think anyone would be lying if they said they didn't feel this way at moments.

Lately, I feel this way a lot. I know I am not sucking up every moment I can. I am not spending every second I can with my kiddos.

I feel like I am expecting a lot from my kiddos but I am absent... Especially of Hais. Right now- it is 6:43pm. Hais has been in school all day, come home to do homework and eat dinner, and now at swim practice til 8pm.

Me. I am laying in bed. I feel like I should be there with her. I mean realistically I know that is silly. She is 11. I am 35. I am also 25 weeks preggo with twins. However, I want every second with my kids. I want to hug her and stop her from growing. I want to keep her home and keep her mine forever. I know. Two different subjects there. Basically, it all sounds like preggo emotions coming to the surface! Lol

Side note. Lee and I are toying with house hunting. We both are craving some space. We want to stay in Falcon. We know we are staying here for at least 5 more years. So this seems like the time to do something. We are looking for at least an acre. We will get an older house and a lot smaller... Which seems crazy since our family is growing. But it is worth the trade for more space and outdoor time for kiddos! Who knows if it will happen. Dreams!


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