Mommy Guilt

How can I possibly get it all done?? Isn't that the thought that we have a lot as mommas- or even just as women??

Little man is home sick. Last night was rough. We hung out in the living room from about 12:15am- 3am. I watched some shows I have missed on my Apple TV and lil man played. It wasn't too bad honestly. Then when I finally laid him down and went back to bed- it was about 3:15am- I started thinking.

Today I had grand plans. I had made plans with my hubby for him to get up early and get Hais off to school- so I could get a run in before he left for work. Then we would exchange kids on post around 445 in the afternoon cause I wanted to take a spinning class tonight. Hais godmother is teaching her first spinning class since having my sweet godson Jackson... so I really wanted to be there for her tonight. Yet as I was laying down- I knew none of that would happen.

It got me thinking. I always hear how we have to make ourselves a priority. As women we are always putting ourselves last. It is totally true. I am the one that sacrifices to get things done for others. If lil man is sick- I stay up with him at night cause I am momma. If it means changing my workout plans for the next day- so be it. It could be the kids, hubby, animals, house, volunteer commitments... something is always getting in the way.

I have learned this year to make "no" a bigger part of my vocabulary. While I cannot say no to my kiddos getting sick or needing help with a project... I can cut back commitments elsewhere. I have done it too. This week in fact- I had nothing planned. I was sooo excited. I was planning 5 days at the gym. I was planning Dr Phil. Paperwork shredding. Volunteer binder organization. Emails being sent out.

Then kids get sick. So.... emails are behind. Laundry is piling up. Gym time is not being logged. Sleep is not happening. While this week may not be what I planned... it will still be good. Maybe next week will be my week. Here's to hoping right?? lol