Life is unfair. We all know that. Some things about it though are a little more heartwrenching than others. For instance- I would love to be stationed near my parents. I am jealous of those in California. I wish that I could go eat at an awesome restaurant without thinking of calories. I wish I had a few thousand in my bank account.
But all those things I deal with because at the end of the day they are not of real importance.
What is important?? Fertility. Life is not fair. Some people get preggo without even trying- or without even wanting the baby. Some people have never had to worry about whether or not they will add to their families- it is just a matter of when.
Then there are people like me. I am making hour long weekly drives, getting shots in my stomach daily, getting blood drawn weekly, worrying constantly... just crossing my fingers for a baby...
As all this is happening- I am watching friend after friend get preggo. Listening to them complain over the weight they are gaining or the fact that it took 3 months instead of 2. Hearing comments like "I didnt realize it would happen that fast."
Do not get me wrong... I am HONESTLY happy for each of them. I love them and want whatever makes them happy... it just still stinks when you are on the other side. Shots daily stink... but the emotional roller coaster is even worse. It is emotionally draining on my husband and I... and our relationship...
Life is not Fair...
PS- I had to add something in... Dawn from Musings from the Pigg Pen sent me this link to an article on Our Cup Runneth Over
- the article is amazing... but one part stood out to me more than it all...
~Believe it or not, I was truly excited for my friends. It’s a weird feeling being sad for yourself, but being thrilled for a friend. Trust me, my joy for my friends overcame my sadness for myself.
-Cilla
Thank you Dawn... it was just what I needed!
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My friend, Cilla, who just went through IVF wrote this for our joint blog...thought you might like reading it for your friends (even though I'm sure you already know all this stuff and would love to say it to others :)). Feel free to use on your blog if it'd help. Prayers for you and your family.
http://www.ourcupsrunnethover.com/blog/index.php/2011/03/22/10-things-tuesday-some-things-everyone-should-know-about-infertility/
Okay, I'm bad...yay...glad it could help :). I know when Cilla was going through IVF (and another friend got easily pregnant) I always wanted to be supportive in the best ways possible - without always knowing the best ways. So this helped tons. Glad it helped you too :).
I mean I'm back...not I'm bad...wow I'm really filling up your comments :) Sorry about that.
Dawn- it was super helpful! Not only for me but one of the girls in our fertility group (we call ourselves The Sprouts). She is struggling too! Thank you!
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