Its Ok!

  It is another It's Ok link up day!   It's Ok...   -That I am totally overwhelmed with our spending this month. We are definitely paying for early month spending now- at the end of the month!   -I am torn about going back to work. We need another income to live comfortably but honestly- I hate the idea of not being with C everyday. I want an adult life- time with adults and a job of my own- but the fact that C would have to go to daycare stinks!   -I keep planning on getting up first thing in the morning to go to the Rec Center to get on the treadmill before Lee heads to work. I haven't done it once!   -That I totally heard Carter crying early this morning (like 4 am) and I acted like I didn't until Lee got up to get him. I feel awful cause he works all day and I sleep in every morning! I say in my defense though- being with C all day is exhausting!   -That my feet are freezing but I am way to lazy to get up and do anything about it. We have been keeping the heat down in the house cause of the insane utilities we pay a month. We average $400-425 a month on utilities. Isn't that insane?   -I keep filling my schedule with tons of fun events- hoping it will keep me happy. I am still struggling with being upbeat everyday and having things to look forward to may help.   -That I am watching an episode of My First Place on HGTV and it is in San Francisco. Makes me miss home SO much!   -Speaking of homes- I think it is ok that I am sort of sad we did not get to do the home search in person. Love my house but wish we could have walked through houses to see what was available.   -That I am jealous of Hais and all the fun she is having today. Valentines day parties today!! Oh to be a 10 year old again!