Strength

I am amazed at my body. I went to a spin class this morning and made it through the entire hour long class. I have had a love affair with spinning since I first tried it back in 2004. I get in cycles where I spin 2-3 times a week and then other cycles where I may not spin for months. I cannot remember the last time I spun- I know I have done a few classes since I had Carter almost 11 months ago... but there has been no regularity in the last 2 years.

But still- I showed up today for that class- and my body showed up too. It fit into that saddle and allowed me to sprint- hover- jump and "slow my roll" for a solid hour. I will not say that I was at the same intensity as the others in that class. I will not say that I couldn't have worked harder. But I worked.

There are days I curse my body. I curse the fact that it cannot naturally make a baby. I curse the extra rolls and stretch marks. I curse the crazy baby bangs that refuse to grow completely. I curse my inability to go for a run like I used to.

Yet- my body ceases to amaze me. Today I walked out of that class with a feeling of awe in reference to my body. There were muscles used today that had not been utilized in awhile. I went in there just expecting my body to do the work- and guess what... it did!

I rocked that spinning class. I sweated. I pushed. I questioned my ability to increase the intensity when I was supposed to or do one more jump. Yet I did it and I survived.

On those days in the future when I find myself questioning or tearing down my body- I will remember that it is capable of amazing things...

PS- I am going back to spinning two times a week. Lee agreed to stay home with the kiddos on Tuesday & Thursday mornings- so that I can do the 6:30am spin class... bring it on!